could do much more in helping others than Hank ever could as a man. She knew that a well dressed, kind, gracious lady just by her presence among a group of people created an influence of gentleness and respect among them, and that was what she hoped to be able to do.

She made friends easily with both men and women. She had several dates, and while men showed an interest in her, she was not yet familiar enough with her female role to show more than a casual interest in them.

Lydia enjoyed shopping. She took a great delight in looking at all the lovely feminine things on display in all the department stores and women's specialty shops.

She bought many things she didn't need just for the satisfaction it gave her to buy something feminine for herself. She learned what other women learn early in their lives, that although the stores had a great variety of ready to wear costumes, often it was not possible to find exactly what you wanted. With one of her new found friends from the business school, she enrolled in a class that taught sewing and design, and was learning how to make many of her own clothes. It gave her a satisfaction she never imagined possible to design and make a dress for herself. She was also learning more on how to cook, and occasionally enjoyed preparing a dinner for a few of her friends.

As she became more and more accustomed to living as a woman, she began to realize that if she were to remain a woman she would have to do more than just wear the clothes. She felt that one of the greatest achievements of a woman's life was to have a family and make a home. If she were to really be a woman she would have to be thinking about being a wife and a mother. She rather liked the idea of being a wife. She thought it would be nice to have some one care for you and to care and help someone in return. But she wasn't sure about being a mother. She wondered how well qualified she was to be one. Being born a male and living and working as a man for the first thirty years of her life didn't seem to her to be very good preparation to be a mother.

Girls were born with a longing to have children and raise a family. A man might want a family and be the head of the house, but he did not have the dream of the wonder, the delight, and the danger of bear- ing a child that was common to all women. Lydia was not at all sure she would ever be able to grasp such a dream. Anyhow she would have to wait for the man that she felt was the right one for her.

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